剛去完表哥的婚宴回來, 忽然想寫些什麼.
整個婚宴的氣氛都是喜氣洋洋的,
尤其是表哥唱著"每天愛你多一些",
送上99朵玫瑰予新娘子的一刻,真的讓人很感動.
再次證明, "橋唔怕舊, 最緊要受"呢個道理.

只是, 我依然不明白, 為什麼現在的婚宴要像一場show?
又不是公司的Annual Dinner, 為什麼要有table prize和抽獎?
親朋戚友來到婚宴, 都是為恭賀一對新人, 也不會在乎那些禮品.
如果只是在乎體面的話, 把婚宴弄得三不像, 不是更奇怪嗎?
總覺得, 這樣把婚宴的意義本末倒置了.

在記憶所及, 小時候的婚宴都沒有這樣多花臣.
頂多只有玩新人這個玩節,
沒有新人成長過程的video,
也欠缺現今的Bingo或者抽獎,
可是, 我反而覺得, 這樣簡簡單單就好.

是不是, 要回歸平淡太難?

ps: 再在此祝表哥表嫂白頭到老, 婚姻生活愉快!!!

話說等左小魚成個世紀咁耐，終於係尖沙咀既麻布茶房settle down左。
坐左未夠十分鐘， 小魚忽然問:「係你五點鐘方向，個個係咪L先生?」我一轉身，只消看側面，也能把L先生認出來。結果整頓飯，我都沒有再擰轉身，連呼叫侍應生也要由小魚代勞。

看到這裡的朋友們，一定會認為我跟L先生有著過節。而實情是，L先生是我的ex。分手以後，我們在生疏與親暱的關係中兜旋著。唯獨這一次，我忽爾發現，He is enough. 打電話不接聽，發電郵也沒有回覆; 接上後，語氣也異常冷淡。是有心或是無意的迴避，已經沒有關係。只是，在送上Christmas present的一刻，我無法不反問自己: ”Did I fucked up all the things?” 還是，我反應過敏? 我無意為自己的行為作辯護，畢竟，是我自己舉棋不定，弄不清自己的感覺。然而，我還是會因為你的冷漠而感到難過。

最後，在他離開餐廳時，都沒有跟我打招呼。
(註1: 就苦哥所言，我應該慶幸他沒有過來跟小魚打招呼而把我當透明看)
坐在餐廰看著他離去的背影，我知道，我不應該再多說什麼。

或許有一天，我們真的可以再做朋友。

轉貼自:HBO

一直很想完整地看一遍,
發現Poly Library有整套片子後, (應該是付了萬元學費最大既benefit)
花了一個多月的時間逐集追看, 終於在前幾天看完了.

從First season既定位摸索,
一直到Final season既perfect ending.
The stories are incredibly interesting and funny.
四個性格截然不同的single Manhattan women,
sharing and talk about their love and sex lives,
experiencing up and down, change and growth.

There must be some moments, that you were touched by the scene,
because it reflects the past of you.
It might be the monogamous relationship, freaking, timing or any other situations.
To me, it comes to the Episode "Escape from New York" in season 3. When Carrie travel to LA to get away from the whole mess, she sudden realized that "No matter how far you travel or how much you can run from it...can you ever really escape from your past?".
In my journey, even though how far I go away or how many cities that I've been, I knew the wounds are still there and they can never be vanished from my life. But maybe, I can just give up the ghost and move on. Because you'll realize that you're the one who is holding the key to escape, if we can overcame many hurdles to become who we're, why bother this time?

Another exciting idea to tell from the show is that single women can still be happy and fun.
Somehow, you knew well that your own identity should not have to be dependent upon another person, or being married. But when it's come to the time that most of your friends were starting to get marriage, you start to wonder the stigma of being single.
And it's always comforting to find out that "It's okay for a woman to be single and fabulous".

Among the episodes, one of my favorite scenes is the night that Carrie is moving to Paris and runs into Mr. Big outside of her apartment. The scripts are sad and I was touched beyond words. Through all these years, it's the first time that Carrie really yelled at Mr. Big.
Carrie: You do this every time! Every time!
Do you have some kind of radar? Carrie might be happy, it's time to swipe and shit all over it?
Big: What? No, no. Look, I came here to tell you something. I made a mistake, you and I...
Carrie: "You and I", nothing!
You cannot do this to me again! You cannot jerk me around.
Big: Carrie, listen, it's different
Carrie: It's never different, is six years! And it's never being different.
But this is it! I'm done!
Don't call me ever again. Forget you know my number.
In fact, forget you know my name.
And you can drive down the street all you want because I don't live here anymore.
In matter of loves, we never know when and what is enough, but probably your heart will tells you where to go.

When I'm watching the show, I couldn't stop thinking about Carrie's column.
Is there such a thing as "relationship karma" that we need to pay for what we've done wrong in one relationship in the next? When we messed it all up, is there an open and shut case of karmic retribution waiting for us?

And are we all, just old fashioned girls believe in soul mate which hasn't give up on the endless search of love and romanticism?
Maybe it's like what Carrie wrote in her column:
"Soul mate" Two little words. One big concept. A belief that someone, somewhere, is holding the key to your heart and your dream house. All you have to do is find them. So where is this person? And if you love someone and it didn't work out, does that mean they weren't your soul mate?
Maybe no matter how far we've gone, deep inside our heart, we're still waiting to be saved.

今年的Christmas跟往年的沒兩樣,
都是趕著四處去搜購姊姊們的聖誕禮物,
得著聖誕節後遺症 - 逛街恐懼.
荷包輕了, 卻換來了幾個愉快的晚上.

和同事們的BBQ加$29.9交換禮物,
跟二家姐兩個孤家寡人看的<我愛巴黎>,
連同和姊妹們在Our Wonderland的聖誕聚餐,
All these nights are just fabulous.

不過, 今年的聖誕除左天氣反常外,
連一向選擇缺席的姊妹男友,
都一前一後出現在我們的聖誕和生日聚餐,
應該算是另一個反常現象吧!

PS: 總覺得聖誕節應該看-The Holidays-才算最完滿.

整件事源於一個非正式統計.
話說, 自數星期前開始, Lunch過後到Pantry喝水時, 總會看到水機亮起紅燈.
代表的是, 是時候換水了. 敝公司的水機是上流式, 即更換水樽時不用將之倒轉, 但也要把水樽搬進矮地臺的廚櫃內.
如是者, 每天也要換上一轉. 說實話, 公司內也有三十多人, 怎麼每天都是我?
今天Lunch後, 已打算要換水. 打開廚櫃一看, 竟然, 有人已經換過了.
鄰座的同事即打趣說今天是我的Lucky day.

一直都沒有把事情放在心上, 直到下班以後, 途經7-11時看到怪誕城的扭蛋.
本打算試一下手氣, 卻陰差陽錯, 要2x$5的時候, 我只有一個$10. 換掉了$5的時候, 別個扭蛋機卻只收$10.
最後, 要回到家裡附近的7-11, 才有機會檢證一下.
結果, 竟然真的給我扭到尚欠的一隻special edition. 在重覆了一打以上的扭蛋後, 終於可以集齊一套6款.
所以, 今天真是我的Lucky Day!!!

黃媽媽讀書不多, 年青時轉過不少工作.
直至在親戚介紹下, 到了某大製衣廠做女工.
轉眼間, 一做便是四十年.

由入職的車衣女工, 晉升到管理數千人的生產部主管.
沒有讀過Management, 怎至連英文牌子都不會唸的她,
卻可以把工作處理得妥妥當當,
閒時還擔當起輔導的工作, 開解下屬的心結.

甚至, 在回歸祖國工作還沒有興起的九十年代初,
她早已洞悉先機, 選擇長駐廣東的工廠.
為的是, 給兒女一個舒適的家.

縱使她不會燒菜, 連糖跟鹽都不分清,
把家裡的雜務都留給爸爸,
然而, 她卻是讓女兒專敬的好媽媽.

回想起來, 作為女兒的我,
做過太多匪夷所思的事,
可是, 這個非關媽媽, 從來都沒有責怪過.

現在, 我們的關係就像朋友一樣,
偶爾會談談工作上的不如意,
也會討論日常生活的瑣碎事.

我不知道, 將來的我會否有黃媽媽這樣的成就,
但我確定, 成為黃媽媽的孩子, 是我的福氣.